nerdfighting.

i met hank green today. he is one half of the vlogbrothers, and a person i literally owe a lot to. it was like meeting half of j.k. rowling in a way. not quite as much because i've only been nerdfighting for 2 years, but still pretty significant. i promised myself i wouldn't back out of really telling him what i wanted to, like i did when i talked to john three times. so i told him. i thanked him for everything and explained what project for awesome had done for me. how it was a horrible day. how my mom had just had surgery. halfway through i almost started crying, i was shaking, and he just held out his arms to hug me. he hugged me hard and kept me there for a few seconds and let me finish. i needed that. i really did.

anyways, it made me remember this comment i made on the p4a experience to a friend who interviewed me about it:

"That day was actually really special to me, and the whole community was really vital to my sanity that day. It was the day my mom was having her surgery. After I came home from seeing her at the hospital I went straight to my computer to get my mind off things and help the project, to find out they were just about to start commenting and addressing my video. John was leading it and they all comforted me with kind words and virtual hugs while I told them all about my trip to the hospital and the status of my mom. I had never been more overwhelmed with love and gratitude in my life by virtual strangers, but the love I felt from them was genuine."

Because Seth and Gum freakin' rock...

if you wish to contribute to "Nicole really wants to go to Dallas" fund and charity (I am like a sick kid), you can go to Paypal and pay to beatlesgroupiekn@sbcglobal.net

Only if you want.
And only if you love me.
And don't like seeing me cry.

Fun times.

I watched Sweeney Todd and Arrested Development last night with some fun people until 4 in the morning. Sometimes I love my life more than usual.<3

I'm not ready to move out in two weeks.

I wanna stay here. Can I just stay here?

New people.

I met Jenny Owen Youngs about two nights ago and can I just say that she's destined to be my best friend?
She's incredibly sarcastic and witty and we pretty much got along great.
I also met Dhani Harrison extremely briefly but you know, I think we're married now.

Oh and if you don't know who Jenny Owen Youngs is, you should:


She's deliciously witty:

Gushing about Liz.

I've been having this ongoing discussion with my friend Liz for the past month or so on just random topics. It mostly deals with writing and just life ideas and I don't know, it's just one of the best discussions I've ever had in my life. She's such a beautiful person. Do you remember when I said I wanted to find someone who would understand what I meant when I said life is beautiful? I found her. I found her and she's fantastic and an amazing writer and is just inspiring. So basically this blog post is for me to gush about what an amazing friend I have.<3

Oh, 19.

It's my birthday and it's been fabulous. Also, I have the best friends:

Boring.

Home is so boring. All I have is Gum on Skype. Thank God she'll be here in a couple days.

Spring Break, whoo!

I'm home and happy and full of food. I had such a fucking fantastic time yesterday with Lauren and Matt and Andrew and everyone else before, during, and after the podcast/release party. I have too much love in my life. I'm so lucky.

Liz is brilliant.

"i pretty much have 1 constant that transfers to a lot of different mediums: i do not live in reality.

i like this.

i like us."

Just friends.

I am thoroughly enjoying being friends with boy #1 right now. Now that he has a girlfriend/something type I feel a lot more at ease with him. I've stopped trying to impress and now I'm just being myself and he responds well to that. He's a good friend, not such a good prospective boyfriend.

Today I went to get some rolls of film developed that I've been holding onto and I think there are some fantastic pictures in there. I'll post some soon I hope.

So much fun.

I just spent all day with my friends Lauren and Nicole and we just had a BLAST. We did a fake audition video for Lauren for the New Moon movie and we just had so many bloopers. This is how it went...

I'm so in love.

With one of my best friends Jessica, who was literally quite concerned at the prosepect of not getting into the same house when we're sorted at Hogwarts after our long lost letters finally arrive. <333