I am thankful.

Now that Thanksgiving is over, I can tell you all what I'm thankful for because we should say it more than just one day a year. I'm thankful for everything in my life. From the great to the shit to the horrific to the amazing. I'm thankful for friends that I have never met face to face but are probably the only reason I haven't had a nervous breakdown. I'm thankful for the best friend that was sitting there with me when I got the news my mom has breast cancer and somehow intuitively knew that giving me the "I'm sorry, I'm gonna look at you like you're fragile and pity you" look was not the right thing do. I'm thankful my mom is as strong as she is, but wish she would let me take over the strong facade once in a while. I'm thankful for a big sister who is the main reason I am sane and happy. I'm thankful for being allowed to live in Santa Barbara, where the atmosphere is far less poisonous (metaphorically speaking). I'm thankful for books, for everything they've done for me. From providing an escape to giving me some of the most meaningful people and thought provoking ideas I would otherwise never have encountered. I'm thankful for music, which provides me an outlet to write, it inspired everything I am typing right now. I'm thankful for whoever or whatever handed me the cards I've been dealt and put enough trust in me to make do and not fuck up. I am thankful for Shey and Erin who still read this blog and I have absolutely no idea why. I'm thankful I have understanding TA's who realize that school is the last thing on my mind right now. I'm thankful that after everything I've been through I'm still levelheaded enough to know that I have so many things to be thankful for.