Shut me off.

I'm currently reading Girl at Sea by Maureen Johnson and I think it will cheer me up. It's good already and I can't wait to keep reading.

I'm still shut off, I can feel it in my bones. It's an odd feeling, I quite like it. I wonder if this is what doing drugs is like although I never want to find out firsthand.

I wonder what I did in a past life or this life in which I deserved such great friends. Gum has been my rock for the last day and a half, and well, I guess I really needed it. (Gum is totally her real name, by the way.) I've been more honest with her than I think I've ever been with anyone. It's quite scary really but it's also relieving.

Also, I think I've found my new daily thing. Well, by daily I mean when I have my computer and internet access.



i will follow you into the dark...
-Death Cab for Cutie "I Will Follow You Into the Dark"

Fall together.

I'm starting to fall apart. To be honest, I don't know if I want to be put back together.



I must not tell lies.
-Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

Shiiiiit.

I am unbelievably sick, like I don't know what I did to deserve this. For three days I have: had a fever, had a migraine, thrown up every 10 minutes, and been completely dehydrated because I couldn't hold down water. I'm still pretty shit, but it's not AS bad as it was three days ago, but that's not saying much.

P.S. RIP Heath Ledger, this is so sad.