I'm such a fucking masochist.

Or maybe a sadist. So I'm reading Midnight Sun, and I decided to re-read chapter 1. Edward is planning all the ways he can kill Bella and about 20 other people. Who gets into the head of a guy planning to kill people and think IT'S SO FUCKING HOT? Like, I wish I was Bella, if he killed her. I wouldn't mind dying that way. I want his teeth to pierce through my neck. DEAR GOD, IT'S HOT.

Excerpts (Warning: may cause um...):

"Some would hear...and I'd be forced to kill even more innocents in this black hour.
And her blood would cool while I murdered the others."

"The monster in my head smiled in anticipation."

"Even if she had time to scream, which she would not, there would be no one to hear."

"And when I had her alone, there would be no chance of anyone else getting hurt. And no reason to rush through the experience, the monster in my head agreed."

So am I a sick son of a bitch, or what?

HP VS. Twilight once again.

I love how Twilight is trying to nudge its way into my heart. (My little nudger, get it Twilighters? Get it?) Twilight is like "Hey! Harry Potter is being a real dick to you cos the movie is now 11 months away instead of three! But guess what? WE love you, and will move the movie three weeks closer for you. Cos we love you. Love."

"Now for the good news! Though we're all sad to have to wait for Harry Potter, this open spot at the theater creates a cool opportunity. The good people at Summit were thrilled to let me know that now Twilight fans are going to get their movie three weeks earlier than scheduled. That's right—Twilight will be released in theaters November 21st! Let the merry-making commence!"

Stolen from Stephenie's site.

I'M FUCKING ECSTATIC.

Oh Jackson, my Jasper.

Do you see that guy on the right? Yeah, I see him too.

Ohemgee.

DEFINITELY my favourite Breaking Dawn quote so far!:

Bella: “Jasper? What do vampires do for bachelor parties? You’re not taking him to a strip club, are you?”

I think that's self-explanatory.

Fangirl squee!

Tonight, Entertainment Tonight is supposed to world premiere the second Twilight trailer. I don't think you can comprehend how excited I am. Like, I think I am going insane. Sometimes being a fangirl is a little too much.

Rumours make me exceedingly happy.

"This just in: the second Twilight teaser trailer will be showing in front of The Dark Knight on July 18th! Prepare to be dazzled! ;)"

This is just a rumour for now, no confirmation yet, but HOT DAMN. I was already excited for Dark Knight, but this is just the cherry on top! Except the Half-Blood Prince trailer won't be with it. =( Which is actually pretty good cos I seriously don't think I could handle both those trailers together in one night.

I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it.

Today is 36 days till Breaking Dawn. You have no idea how excited I am. Like, I didn't feel this excited when Christmas was coming.

SO MUCH LOVE.

I got my first graduation present today. And basically, it is the best present I will ever get, you can never top it. I'll probably post pictures later or tomorrow. I just want to say I fucking love my Deanna Soulmate and Meg Brown Sista.

Don't you drink my O'Douls!

I had a Twilight party. With 3 people. It was amazing.

P.S. My mom started reading Twilight cos of my obsession. How cute is that?!

WTF?

I just saw the Breaking Dawn cover art and...it's weird. I don't know what to make of it. I just don't see the flow with the other covers, but hey, as long as it works with the story. Now let's critically analyze only to find out it has no real significance like New Moon.

Hello, lovers!

I can't wait to see the Sex and the City movie. I'm hoping to go sometime today between school and the awards banquet tonight but I don't know if I'll be able to. Also, I am SUPER DUPER EXTREMELY excited to get up SUPER DUPER early tomorrow to buy the special edition of Eclipse which includes the first chapter of Breaking Dawn and the cover art. I don't think you can understand my excitement. It is oozing out of my pores and rocking me to my core. TOO MUCH EXCITEMENT.

You ain't gettin your hands on my virtue, ho.

Last night I had this strong urge to read Twilight even though I was in the midst of reading Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets. Somehow, and don't ask me cos I have no fucking clue how I did it, I talked myself out of picking up Twilight. I talked out loud to myself and said "No, it's unhealthy and you can't do that to Harry when he's been there for you for 10 years. You just can't." I have problems, don't I?

WHAT IS MAKING MY LIFE AMAZING RIGHT NOW.

AHHHHHHHHHH.
I swear, I adore that whole cast to pieces. Edward and Bella laying in the field is so hot. Jasper is also hot. "I don't know, they have brooms." HAHAHA. Emmett is adorable. SIGH. When I was watching it, I felt like my heart jumped out of my chest, the love is so overwhelming.
Well, I should go lie down or something, I have to wake up early to go to Santa Barbara tomorrow, I'm at my cousin's house at the moment. It's so exciting to go visit the place you're gonna be living for the next four years. I can't wait!

Twilight talk.

I'm sure everyone's sick of me talking about Twilight, but I just had a revelation. I finally GET Rosalie. FINALLY. I never got her and that always bugged me. I knew there MUST be more to her than her superficiality, and I just get it now. It's a nice feeling.

Le sigh.

My sickness is over. It was surprisingly quick, but I just re-read Eclipse and have different kinds of aches. I'm so stupid.

Birthday

It's my birthday or something and I may be talking to David for like an hour in cowboy southern accents and I may be reading Twilight. Just maybe.

Eat you up.

I love all these new pictures from the Twilight filming. I swear to God looking at that man makes me forget how to breathe. I feel like Bella except for the whole I don't get to have him part.

I am sure.

Thank god for my Deanna Soulmate! She's just as obsessed as I am! We spent ten minutes talking about Bella's truck!!!

It's eating away at me..

I'm being consumed by this. I'm sure that if I didn't have pressing college matters to do over the internet I wouldn't have remembered to write a post today, so that's good. Except as soon as I'm done with this, I'll go right back. I'll be locked up soon.

No one understands...

how bad it's gotten. It's finally the weekend which means I can finally sleep. But I won't sleep because I'll be obsessing about the fictional vampire I'm deeply in love with and how HE ISN'T REAL and that even if he was, he probably wouldn't love me! I'm gonna go cry now.