FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKK!

I'M FUCKING DONE. I SENT IN MY DAMN UC APPLICATION. NO ONE TELLS YOU THE UGLY SIDE OF COLLEGE APPLICATIONS. THEY TELL YOU ABOUT THE STRESS YES, BUT THEY DON'T TELL YOU HOW YOU'LL DEPRIVE YOURSELF OF SLEEP ALL WEEK. UNTIL THE FOURTH DAY WHEN YOUR BODY SHUTS DOWN AND SAYS "LISTEN BITCH YOU'RE GONNA SLEEP" BUT YOUR BRAIN IS SAYING "NOOOOO I NEED TO WORK ON MY PERSONAL STATMENT!" BUT YOU STAY ASLEEP AND STRESS IN YOUR SLEEP TILL YOU WAKE UP AT FOUR IN THE MORNING AND START THROWING UP FROM STRESS. YEAH. NO FUN. I FEEL LIKE THE BIGGEST WEIGHT HAS JUST BEEN LIFTED OFF MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

I don't mean to be a bitch, but...

I want to get a shirt made that says "I got into half the UCs without applying, what did YOU do?" Hahahahah I hate personal statements.

BLAH.

In my news, I got into UC Irvine today. Too bad I'm not applying there. I've been so stressed with personal statements sometimes I just want to give up, until I realize that's not an option. I was on the verge of tears three times today. It's hard to keep it in these days. I'm not sleeping all week until it's done and sent. I'll take the occasional nap here and there, but that's it. ARGH. The only thing keeping me going right now is my Christmas tree. Seriously.

AHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm working on my personal statements for the UCs and I'm kinda freaking out when I shouldn't be freaking out cause I already got into my second choice. So basically if I don't get into Berkeley I'm going to Santa Barbara. WHY AM I STILL HERE?!

Let's sum up my 5 day vacation in one picture.

Dear So. Cal,

Thanks for getting my last letter!

It was so cold this morning, I was in love. Today my Tata totally called me a cholo, it was hilarious. We also had a Journalism Thanksgiving party and I was drenched in soda. EUGH. I love the Christmas feel. Tomorrow is my last day of school and then I have a 5 day break. On Wednesday I'm going to Disneyland with basically everyone ever. Me, Kristin, Steve, Steve's mom, Danielle, Michael, Aline, David, Tara, Martin, Anastacia, Jacob, Mom, and Dad. Wheeeeeee. It's gonna be so much fun! I'm gonna be so happy if my best friends go and get passes. Also my mom gave me and SLR camera, I'm in love! It's not digital, it's a real film camera, YES THOSE DO EXIST. Loooooooooove.

The sun is out, the sky is blue, it's beautiful and so are you.

Dear So. Cal,
It's the middle of November, do you know what that means? In case you don't, it means COLDNESS. QUIT BEING SO FUCKING HOT. Even by So Cal standards, this is ridiculous. Please, I want to turn on my heater already.
Looooooove forever,
Nic.

So I watched Brothers and Sisters today cause I wasn't around on Sunday...I don't remember where I was. It was intense, I started crying at one point, oh and Kevin and Scotty need to get back together cause he's the best thing ever.

A car and a permit are in the talks for me. I wanted to go driving today, but my dad forgot I think. Heffa! Tomorrow is a Chicago workshop and Danny's play, Thursday is Michael's birthday and Friday is Journalism Day at USC Annenberg and the Lights Out Dance. So much going on!

College update!

In the last two days I got into UC Riverside and UC Merced. GO ME.

Reason #2514251021 why my best friend is better than yours.

She showed up at my school today unannounced with tons of congrats balloons for getting into UC Davis and Santa Barbara. WHAT A SWEETHEART.

Steve Carell calls in sick.

Due to "enlarged balls". That is seriously brilliant. I want to go out there and picket, but I have school or something. I want to see if Jay Leno will give me a donut or Eva Longoria will give me pizza. GO WRITERS!

I hate the cuteness.

From Sunday till today, I stayed at my sister and her fiancee's house while my parents were in Vegas seeing Elton John without me! (I know, they're meanies right?!) They're such an old married couple already even though they haven't even been married yet. Steve gets home at like 7, we eat dinner, they play the Wii for a while (so hilarious), and they fall asleep by nine. It's ridiculous. I'm home now, oh and by the way I GOT INTO UC DAVIS. OH YEAH. I guess I have to consider it now. Wheeee.