I don't even know.

This is so depressing. Unless someone reading this wants to loan me some money, and the only people who reads this are Shey, Erin, and Jake sometimes, I don't think I can go to Dallas this summer. I really wish some millionaire would stumble across my blog and just you know, give me some money. Seriously I wanna cry right now. I'm just depressed, I'm kinda sinking into myself.

I HATE SCHOOL.

I HAVEN'T SLEPT ALL NIGHT KILL ME.

Shit.

This weekend has been so exhausting. And now I have to write two papers adding up to 16 pages, one homework assignment, and a short prompt about 300 words? Kill me now.

Exhibit A

I had a dream last night that I had a boyfriend. I can't recall his face but I don't think he was terribly good looking.

Anyways, in the dream he told me he loved me and all I could say was, get this,

"Really?"

Hahahaha, oh dream self. You're almost as bad as real self.

The moral of the story is, I'm gonna die alone.

I wanna be outsideeeeeee.

I have a lot to do today.

Shit.

I hate boys!!

I hate boys.
Dear boy #2,
Thanks for waiting till I was in a funk to ask me advice about your sort of girlfriend. Seriously, thanks.
Lots of motherfucking love,
Nicoleface

Sickly sick.

I'm slowly recovering. The operative word here being SLOWLY. I have this problem where when I cough my entire head goes away and I start falling over. I feel like I am perpetually drunk or on drugs.

Fuck being sick.

Remember the time I didn't go to class today either?
Yeah, I'm wondering when I'm gonna start feeling better...

Sickness.

I'm feeling a bit better. I scored some drugs up in this place so I could sleep all night for once. Hahah, oh and I didn't go to class today. Fun times.

Damn.

I have:
a fever
a sore throat
a headache
and a newly developed earache.

WTF, LIFE?

Oh, mistakes.

I made the biggest mistake of going out last night even though I was already sick. You don't even understand how shitty I feel right now.

An equation.

A terribly horrible day+No Computer= Use of my mulligan.

I am computerless.

I took my computer to Best Buy cos it won't charge anymore and therefore died and they have to send it in to see what's wrong with it. :( My mom dropped boatloads so that they can back up all my memory so I don't lose everything but just, GAH. I hate not having my computer and pictures and music and love and ergh.

I hate finals.

I'm supposed to be studying for Comm, instead I'm watching Anchorman. Finals is frying my brain.

Can I just live in a box?

I didn't get campus housing apartments so now I have to go apartment hunting. FUCK. MY. LIFE.

Too overwhelming.

I just wanna curl up and cry and be dramatic and read Harry Potter who will never leave me and always love me. Maybe it wasn't the best idea to drink, then I wouldn't have overreacted so much. I've seen this coming forever. Why am I such an emotional mess? I hate boys, I hate this whole business. This is why I avoided it for 18 years cos they flirt with you and then cuddle your friend when they're sitting right next to you.

F.M.L.

FML. FML. FML. I want #2, #1 breaks my heart right in front of me.

Boys.

#1 flirted with my friend. #2 makes me forget to breathe. I'm done with boys, they are hazardous to my health.

My eyes hurt.

Yesterday was a pretty crappy day, but things got better around midnight. I'm hoping today will be far better than yesterday. I'm also hoping I get to see two boys today. Mmmmm....

FML.

I just got home. We were on the road for like 10 hours. FML.