how sugar cookies and a lovely girl made my year.

so before i get to how thursday night was quite possibly one of the best experiences of my life, let me talk about how i got to be there and you know, how amazing beth hommel is.

around 8 months ago i wrote a blog about how beth's outlook on life and writing in her blog made me come to some realizations of my own. i adored this woman from afar, about how she could turn the worst situations in beautiful words and watched as she navigated through a new part of her life. i do this with a few bloggers. i read all their work and adore them and know much about their life, but i always forget to comment, or think i have nothing of substance to contribute to their lives/comment sections. however, after months of reading her blog i felt like i knew her, or at least the part of her life she allowed her blog readers to enter and comment on. i slightly envied her for the seemingly quick transition into the circus world known as the punk cabaret/amanda fucking palmer/dresden dolls world. anyways, when she joined twitter along with amanda, i somehow felt that i knew her enough to follow her and that she was well known enough in the community to not care that i was following her (i found the idea of "following" her, when i don't know her and she isn't technically famous, somewhat creepy).

anyways, i'll cut to this week. on monday i found out that my friend from college still wanted to go to the amanda show with me on thursday, so i had a ride. i was excited and thought in my mind, okay i'll buy the tickets tomorrow and we'll go. so i decided to be creepy and tell beth, who i found out was going to be merch girl, that i wanted to bring her something. i felt like i knew her, she knows how loving this community is, and this was my first time meeting her. she let me know that i didn't need to bring her anything but that she doesn't refuse sugar cookies. soon after i left to the store to buy two rolls of sugar cookie dough. i came back and talked to my other friend (the one i went to the ninja beach gathering with) and asked her if she was going to the show on thursday. she didn't know about it and looked up tickets and soon informed me they were sold out. i quickly freaked out and became sad. i then informed beth that i had planned to buy my tickets that night but they were sold out and i had already bought her cookie dough and that i was sorry. she quickly pm'ed and told me she could get me into the show and to e-mail. we e-mailed and she put me on the list for the troubadour. all because a stranger with love wanted to give her sugar cookies and hugs. all because in this island of "misfit toys" as she lovingly refers to us, we are generous, accepting, and beautiful. and that's how sugar cookies and a lovely girl made my year.
perhaps tomorrow i shall blog about the actual show that made my life.

loooooooove.

i had a fucking phenomenal night that i will blog about tomorrow.
in the mean time i will leave you with this crappy quality video that helps sum up my night:

i hung out with amanda palmer today.

a few days ago amanda announced on her twitter that she would be having a ninja party on the beach today. i, of course, leaped at the chance and found out my friend was planning to go too. her mom wanted to drive us though, but it was cool because her mom is, um, AMAZING.

so the plan for the beach party was to hang, some uke music, and a photo shoot. we were asked to come dressed in black and bring bright flowers. unfortunately my friend and i couldn't get there till 6 when it started at 4, but we got there just in time for the hour long photo shoot. i played dead and god, i hurt the crap out of my knee in my awkward position. little did i know amanda would end up lying next to me, and you know, end up naked for part of the shoot.

she's as amazing as you would think she would be. she radiates love, empowerment, and so many other things that just combine to make a lovely person.

so we did a photo shoot for an hour, while my friend's mom blew bubbles all over our dead bodies and naked amanda for the photos. then she signed things, hugged people, got kisses, and loved everyone. hopefully i'll post the pictures when they're released. also, if things work out right i will be blogging soon about how fucking awesome beth, her assistant, is.

Because Seth and Gum freakin' rock...

if you wish to contribute to "Nicole really wants to go to Dallas" fund and charity (I am like a sick kid), you can go to Paypal and pay to beatlesgroupiekn@sbcglobal.net

Only if you want.
And only if you love me.
And don't like seeing me cry.

I don't even know.

This is so depressing. Unless someone reading this wants to loan me some money, and the only people who reads this are Shey, Erin, and Jake sometimes, I don't think I can go to Dallas this summer. I really wish some millionaire would stumble across my blog and just you know, give me some money. Seriously I wanna cry right now. I'm just depressed, I'm kinda sinking into myself.

Jake wins.

I know I was super close but I gave up. Hahaha.

Dear rain,

COME BACK. COME BAAAAAAAAAAACK!

Love,
Nicole

And before you swim you gotta be okay to sink...

I love Incubus, just putting that out there.

They released two songs titled Earth to Bella (1 & 2) about a month before my goddaughter Bella was born. I hope I can play her these songs one day and she'll find them as beautiful and meaningful to her as I feel they are to me.

I love my home.

I don't wanna leave in like a week. Please don't make me. :(

I always wanted to be a Tenenbaum, you know.

I just watched The Royal Tenenbaums with my friend Rachel who had never seen it before. It's so nice watching your second favourite movie with someone who's never seen it before. It's like seeing it through someone else's eyes. Especially when you know they are the kind of person who could appreciate the movie. I just fell in love with it all over again and remembered why it's so amazing.<3

Marry meeee.

Andy Samberg makes my life.
New Moon looks beyond amazing.
So good.

I want Jasper to jump at/try to eat me.